To Simply Be Still

I have been listening to the song "You Love Me Anyway" by Sidewalk Prophets. Every once in a while a song hits me and I have to listen to it over and over again until I get what is really being said to me. There are a few parts in the song that have really been hitting me lately and making me think.

"Still you call me to walk on the edge of this world"
How just simply wild is that? Just the thought makes me wonder of the great things that I don't even know about.

"It took more than my strength to simply be still"
This is the one that just yelled out at me. I have been learning this great lesson and I have just seen it very clearly. Be still... There is no need for change. There is no need to move on or go away. Just BE STILL. I have been taught this lesson at my job and a few other places in my life. I wont get into this but it has been a huge lesson lately. Then I am thrown this message... Leave... That is so different than the lesson that God has been teaching me lately that I should have seen it in the light a long time ago. Just BE STILL.

Thank you for all of the prayer for clarity.

"With this sin in my heart tried to bury Your grace"
I think that we all do this all the time. We take the gift that we were given in Jesus and just try to bury His grace. We put all of this other junk and stuff into some thing that was meant to be just simply grace.

"But You love me anyway"
I am reminded in this that no matter what I do He will love me anyway. He knew my decision before I even made it. If I left He would love me anyway. If I stay He will love me anyway. Just do whatever it is that you are going to do in love for Him and that is all that matters.

"I am the thorn in Your crown... but You love me anyway
I am the sweat from Your Brow... but You love me anyway
I am the nail in Your wrist... but You love me anyway
I am Judas' kiss... but You love me anyway
See, now I am the man who yelled out from the crowd for Your blood to be spilled on this earth shaking ground...
Yes then, I turned away with a smile on my face with this sin in my heart tried to bury Your grace...
And then alone in the night, I still called out for You...
So ashamed of my life, my life, my life... but You loved me anyway"
This part of the song just gives me chills and hits me right in the face. I am all of these things... Are you?

My relationship has been hurting lately. My faith is fading. It is my prayer today for renewal.

See... it doesn't have anything to do with if someone has enough time to reply to an email... it has nothing to do with my husband and my children's faith... It has nothing to do with making me feel guilty... It has nothing to do with people leaving the church... It has nothing to do with your fear... It has nothing to do with anything except for my relationship with my one and only Jesus.

Sometimes it is just really hard to be simple...