There are times when I have opened up to a person before and really been hurt by doing it. So now when I open up my heart and what I am truly feeling to someone it really means that I trust that person with myself. I find it hard to be around these people after opening up. Afraid to see myself reflected back at me or afraid to see what they really feel about me.I find myself being the same way with God.
I know that He truly sees everything already. So why is it so hard to bring up somethings and put them in the light instead of leaving them in the darkness? He already knows! I don't know... Maybe one day I will have the answer to that.
Lately I have had to make some really tough calls when it comes to certain things in my life. Today I am making another rough call. I looked at my husband last night and said... You know if he never answers me then I will have to leave... Big call there. So I have decided that if he does not answer me today; then what I heard was true and it is time to leave. I am praying so hard that he will just answer me today. I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave what is comfortable. But not having a answer makes it uncomfortable so I can't wait for an answer for forever.
The unheard scream... I have had a lot of those in my life. Right now it is the unheard scream inside that is screaming answer me please just answer me.
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