Smothered...

Sometimes I feel so smothered that I can not breathe. I am feeling that way in one part of my life right now.

I was told something the other day during my prayer time. I don't know if I should take it for exactly what was said or not. I am waiting and still listening... But since then all of the bad that I could see about this one spot in my life has come to light. Every time I turn around the bad spots are slapping me in the face. Have they always been there and I have just ignored them... or are they just starting to happen now.

I am sold out... 100% sold out. My faith is the strongest that it has ever been. I love God with all of my heart and all of my soul and all of me. I always have an ear turned to listen and to seek out what I am supposed to be doing. Waiting to hear from Him. I would rather die than to deny Him any part of me.

But what do I do when what He is telling me to do would appear to ruin my marriage? When it would tear me a part from the local church that I am a member of?

I am listening... Sometimes I need to be reassured...